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you're too young & eager to love

a liturgy

And I pray one prayer—I repeat it till my tongue stiffens—may you not rest as long as I am living! You said I killed you—haunt me, then! Be with me always—take any form—drive me mad! Only do not leave me in this abyss where I cannot find you.

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If all else perished ...

... and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger.

Posts Tagged: 'fic:+american+horror+story'

Jan. 17th, 2016

impertinences: (warm in my heart)
impertinences: (warm in my heart)

half-savage & hardy & free

impertinences: (warm in my heart)
sound and fury )

Jan. 8th, 2013

impertinences: (so I ran faster)
impertinences: (so I ran faster)

half-savage & hardy & free

impertinences: (so I ran faster)
After marathoning the first three seasons in one weekend, I wanted to write some OZ fanfiction. This came out instead. My muse is fickle and hard to follow. As always, I think my tenses bounce around a bunch, despite my attempt to keep them in order.

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“This house does ugly things to everyone,” Vivien says. “And for those who were ugly already …” She has a gracious smile, kind and unbeguiling. Chad studies her over his tea, his eyes dark and his expression somewhat guarded. Their daughter isn’t anywhere near – she’s probably taking baby steps back towards Young Bundy – but Chad can hear Ben in the other room, catering to a crying infant.

How many months has it been since the Harmons died? He spends so much time alone now that it’s almost impossible to keep count of the minutes that float by. He’ll sit down with a glass of Merlot in spring and finish it in November. None of this is fair, he thinks, as Moira refreshes his tea, her hands milk-pale and deeply wrinkled. Every gesture she makes seems somehow sad or self-righteous, but he supposes he would act the same if his body had been buried outside, on the property, owned forever by the house and a deluge of murderous memories.

Sitting like this, he can almost feel Hayden’s eyes on him, but then it's typical to feel at least one pair of malignant eyes on you if you're even moderately happy. All of it starting with poor, sad Nora who just wanted some ornamental offspring and couldn’t learn to turn her face away from her husband’s work. It’s befitting, however, the way despair and rage provide more nutrition for this place than his apathy does.

It makes him wonder. Had the house drawn them all here, or did they all suffer a certain malignant compulsion once they entered it? There was a large amount of unusually miserable inhabitants currently residing within the floorboards, but Patrick and him had loved each other, once, when they had first moved in.

“Unless we didn’t.” Patrick says, and Chad turns, finding himself suddenly in the master bedroom. It is fitting.

Patrick is on the floor, sunning himself like a predator turned housecat. He had done this in life as well, and it was one of the first things that made Chad realize he was painfully in love with this man. It didn’t hurt that he had (and still does) look like an American version of Alexander Skarsgard. “No, I did.” He says, correcting himself, after a moment. “I thought I did.”

“Oh, well, of course. We could get all esoteric and philosophical about it -- ”

“Why do you have to do that?” Patrick asks, pulling himself up, body lean and graceful. It makes Chad’s cock ache.

“So, it was the house?”

“Does it matter?” Patrick says with a huff, and Chad can feel that tug – the sense that this is about to end, and he will be sent back to the ether – and he shakes his head quickly.



After Tate Langdon had been gunned down inside, the house had bounced between owners for years. The price was ridiculously low, and Chad had been ecstatic over the real estate listing. Patrick had been happy enough to go and see the house, but less than sold on the idea when, standing in the kitchen at the end of the tour, Chad told him they should buy it. He was already imagining wallpaper colors, restored, original fixtures, the Tiffany glass, staining the floorboards.

“Are you kidding? I’m pretty sure the agent wasn’t letting us into the basement because there are dead animals down there. It smells like it, anyway. And those paintings are seriously nightmarish.”

“They’re a little Dante via Bosch, but there’s so much opportunity for … something. It’s a perfect flip, not only for restorations, but it’s the Murder House. It’s a proper noun!”

“It’s a huge project.”

Chad kissed him then smiled. “You’ll get to use your hammer, smash some things.”



Two years later, Chad was mostly drowned in an apple bobbing station, had his neck sort of snapped, then spent his last moments grasping towards Patrick before he was shot. By a ghost. In a black rubber suit. That was originally bought to help his and Patrick’s diminishing sex life.

Does it mean something? Probably not, but Chad has plenty of time to ruminate.

Dec. 11th, 2011

impertinences: (from in the shadows)
impertinences: (from in the shadows)

half-savage & hardy & free

impertinences: (from in the shadows)
I have to work an extra long shift today thanks to the mall enforcing Holiday Hours. 9-30 to 7:30. Technically, my boss should have split the day between two coordinators - but she didn't. Go figure.

Anyway, it's only 11:30 and I'm bored. So, I wrote some fanfiction. Woo! With a female character I don't even like. Whaaat? I smuggled in the male character that's fascinating me though. I'm clever like that.

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Violet likes the house and its inhabitants.

The realitor had mentioned murder over sweetened tea, and she knew she couldn't leave. Every room here is filled with stories, most of them ending in macabre death. She finds the scratches of fingernails in a back closet of a room on the second floor, and she chooses it for her own. A place where she spends a few solitary moments, curling her limbs close, and smoking the cigarettes she steals from her father. She hasn't stolen any of his razors in a while, but the red marks on the insides of her arms linger angrily. It's suitable. Not much ever goes away in this house, not completely.

-

Tate talks to her, sneaking up with the darkness.

He's been dead for a while. A few years, at least. So he's dead and a killer (school massacre, firing a shotgun at students after a morning of cocaine rails) but he kisses her until she thinks he feels alive. It's more than pathetic, she knows, to be such a cliche - a teenaged girl just struggling with herself and her fucked up family, resorting to pills and pain when the going gets tough, and now she's in love with a ghost.

Her father is a psychiatrist; he would tell her that delusions, after stressful ordeals like almost being knifed to death, are perfectly normal.

Violet doesn't feel like she's ever been normal, though. Maybe something's broken in her. Maybe she hates too much, everyone and everything.

Tate crawls beneath the covers with her, his blonde hair mussed, and his fingers toy with hers restlessly. He talks about love and wishes they were birds.

-

He leaves (disappears, decides he no longer wants to be seen) and she thinks about lives unlived.

It makes her want to cry, fills her legs with tight, panicked energy so she kicks her feet back and forth like a child. Chews on the fingers of her right hand.

When she falls back into her bed, the sheets smell like bones and wet earth.